Time to unwind, sit back relax and enjoy the music.... Get unplugged, it does wonders. - See Lo
I purposely unplugged myself away from the internet. Social media was taking too much of my time, projects in the back burner had to be scraped and from web design. I needed a break.
I am ashamed of dropping out of college, but what was I really going for I asked myself? A year ago, I had decided to become an English teacher, but lately; even the words English gave me the chills because words are meaningless when writing an essay or theory. I got bored. There was no personality, only formality. So, what was the real point in taking English courses when I can do that as a hobby outside of the college system? I do plan on heading back to college, but not at the moment or anytime soon.
My Christian lifestyle has taken a toll, for my faith in the Lord has diminished slightly over the past few months. I only thank God that he continues to send my sister to me to bring me back onto the right path to feed myself in his words of Wisdom. Today, my sister and I went through the Book of Ecclesiastes, which is exactly what I needed to feed my spirit. For God has answered my unspoken prayer.
“Everything is meaningless,” says the Teacher, “completely meaningless.”
What do people get for all their hard work under the sun? Generations come and generations go, but the earth never changes. The sun rises and the sun sets, then hurries around to rise again. The wind blows south, and then turns north. Around and around it goes, blowing in circles. Rivers run into the sea, but the sea is never full. Then the water returns again to the rivers and flows out again to the sea. Everything is wearisome beyond description. No matter how much we see, we are never satisfied. no matter how much we hear, we are not content.
History merely repeats itself. It has all been done before. Nothing under the sun is truly new. Sometimes people say, “Here is something new!” But actually it is old; nothing is ever truly new. We don’t remember what happened in the past, and in future generations, no one will remember what we are doing now.” – Ecclesiastes: 2-11
When I started to read this passage out loud, I felt my heart move because this is what I needed to hear from God’s own words. I needed to hear the truth and not the sugarcoated lies I hear from people. I have always believed that if you do good and work hard, good things will follow. I have done that my whole life and yet I haven’t fully been given a break for all the hard work I have done. I question myself more about my own motives as to why I do the things that I do. Until the passage above, it is all meaningless!
So everything that I have done for the past several years has no meaning for what accomplishment I may have achieved besides the constant nagging from a person who believes themselves to be so righteous. I do not need to focus on others in my family anymore, for it is meaningless to focus on their problem when I have my own. And since everyone has been telling me over and over again to start being focusing on myself, that’s exactly what I’m going to do. Even if it takes me years.