I have not been a good daughter, for I have sinned against my Father. I have not been a good daughter because I have hurted him through my actions and the choices I have made in the past. I didn’t know how much I have committed towards my Father until I prayed to know more of my past deeds. God has opened my eyes to all my faults and my behavior that I was a rebel. I have confessed to all my sins, my faults and asked for his Forgiveness. I have sinned, I am a sinner and I will continue to ask God for Forgiveness. I have forgiven others who have and has done wrong to me. For the Bible says, “But to you who are willing to listen, I say, love your enemies! Do good to those who hate you. Bless those who curse you. Pray for those who hurt you. If someone slaps you on one cheek, offer the other cheek also. If someone demands your coat, offer your shirt also. Give to anyone who asks; and when things are taken away from you, don’t try to get them back. Do to others as you would like them to do to you.” (Luke 6:27-31).
I got down on my knees for the first time despite the pain (arthritis) and prayed and asked God to forgive me for all I have done towards him. For I know, that I am a sinner. I cried and I am not ashamed for releasing my inner battles, for I am not ashamed to admit that Jesus Christ died to save me. Who else would be willing to do that for us all? Now, I come to you as a fellow newly reborn Christian to tell you how I was saved by Our Lord, Jesus Christ. I knew of him, but I didn’t know of him or who he really was until there was a great change within me spiritually.
The day my father passed away, I was resentful and angry. For what? I didn’t know. Why? I didn’t know. My father passed away in 2009, I didn’t fully convert or turned my heart towards God until February 18, 2012 and this is my story:
Before I fully converted to be reborn Christian, I want to share a dream that foretold of my transformation. In my dream, I was at a family dinner at my brother’s house along with the family. When dinner was upon us, robbers entered into our home and they were about to stab my sister (my younger sister who has received the Holy Spirit). I raced across the room and put myself in front of my sister where I was stabbed in the heart. I died. I saw myself getting up in a ghostly form in a white outfit hovering over my dead body as I watched my sister crying. I was then transferred into a different room all in white where I met a man, I couldn’t see his face, but I felt comforted with joy and love. He told me that it wasn’t my time, so I was transferred back to the room where I died. There, from the inside of my heart I saw myself heal in the most brilliant of bright light imaginable. I saw myself glow, I got up and saw who the robbers for who they really were. They were demons trying to kill my sister, so I banished them in the name of Our Father, Jesus Christ. Amen, Hallelujah.
When I woke up from my dream I thought to myself, how weird. You are probably thinking about the same thing as well aren’t you? As I was discussing this with my pastor’s wife, she told me that it was transformation of being reborn and a child of God. My older sister said the same thing and that I prophesied about my spiritual transformation. I didn’t know what it was then, but I know now. It was an incredible feeling, for I cried, prayed and was filled with so much love and joy. And since my meeting with Abby and Pastor Anthony, I have never been happier.
I was fully converted to a Christian by Pastor Nyai Lee with Pastor Bon and Paj as witnesses. I am saved my name is now in the Book of Life. Now, it is up to me to commit and be held accountable to serve God.
These are my commitments in serving the Good Lord:
1. A Resolution To Be Content
I do solemnly resolve to embrace my current season of life, and will maximize my time in it. I will resist the urge to hurry through or circumvent any portion of my journey but will live with a spirit of contentment.
2. A Resolution To Champion Biblical Femininity
I will champion God’s model for womanhood in the face of a post-feminist culture. I will teach it to my daughters and encourage its support by my sons.
3. A Resolution To Value Myself and Celebrate Others
I will accept and celebrate my uniqueness, and to esteem and encourage the distinctions I admire in others.
4. A Resolution To Be Devoted To Christ and Defined By His Word
I will live as a woman answerable to God and faithfully committed to His Word.
5. A Resolution To Devote My Best to God’s Priorities For Me
I will seek to devote the best of myself, my time, and my talents to the primary roles the Lord has entrusted to me in this phase of my life.
6. A Resolution To Esteem Others
I will be a woman who is quick to listen and slow to speak. I will care about the concerns of others and esteem them more highly than myself.
7. A Resolution To Release Others From The Prison of My Hurt
I will forgive those who have wronged me and reconcile with those I have wronged.
8. A Resolution To Live with the Highest Standard of Virtue and Purity
I will not tolerate evil influences even in the most justifiable form in myself or my home, but will embrace and encourage a life of purity.
9. A Resolution To Care
I will pursue justice, love mercy, and extend compassion toward others.
10. A Resolution To Be the Kind Of Woman Who Truly Blesses Her Man
I will be faithful to my husband and honor him in my conduct and conversation in order to bring glory to the name of the Lord. I will aspire to be a suitable partner for him to help him reach his God-given potential.
11. A Resolution To Train My Children in Righteousness
I will demonstrate and teach my children how to love God with all their hearts, minds, and strength, and will train them to respect authority and live responsibly.
12. A Resolution To Make My Home a Welcome Place To Be
I will cultivate a peaceful home where God’s presence is sensed not only through acts of love and service, but also through the pleasant and grateful attitude with which I perform them.
13. A resolution to live today with tomorrow in mind
I fully resolve to make today’s decisions with tomorrow’s impact in mind. I will consider my current choices in light of those who will come after me.
I also wanted to share a part of my past that helped me stay positive about my life. Long ago, when I was twenty-one years old. I had a nervous breakdown. I cried so much in my bedroom because I was depressed (I didn’t know I was even depressed back then). I was crying so much because I didn’t want to be the older sister who always had to take care of my younger sibling. I didn’t want to be who I was anymore. I didn’t want to be stuck where I was for the next couple of years. I cried until I went to sleep. During my sleep, I felt something incredible and a soothing arms around me. I didn’t know it then, but I know now. God came into my life and wrapped his arms around me that day. I felt peace. Today, when I think back on that dark place in my life. I never knew that God was and has always been there for me to wipe my tears away. He loved me enough to wrap his wonderful arms around me and I am so blessed to be sharing this with you all. God is a WONDERFUL God. I pray that each of you open your heart and INVITE Jesus Christ into your heart, because he has a purpose for you to fill. Amen.